Out of the blue

November 9th, 2005

Sorry I haven’t written in awhile. I’ve been busy working. I take breaks to eat and sleep, but that’s not much fun! I did squeeze in the German comedy, “The Wedding Party,” shown as a part of the AFI Festival playing at the ArcLight Cinemas in Hollywood, California. That two hour reprieve is as much fun as I get these days!

I’ve been occupied with work, so I haven’t had the chance to answer an email I received from my friend, Ruth, last Friday. You remember her, right? Check out this previous posts for an overview.

Here’s what she wrote:

Thu, 3 Nov 2005 10:06:50 -0800 (GMT-08:00)

Hey Flo,
Long time, no…anything…
Where are you? How are you doing?
You were going to call me back after NAB (National Association of Broadcasters) in April and I never heard back - that’s a real long time ago. Yeah, yeah, I never called you either, but you have to admit things were kind of weird.
Just thinking about you lately.
Hope you are well.

It was nice to hear from her…mostly. I know it’s petty, but I have a small issue with the, “Yeah, yeah, I never called you either, but you have to admit things were kind of weird,’ part.

I don’t disagree with that assessment, things were definitely weird and awkward between us after I left Endicott. The irritating part is that I know she and her husband had no problem staying in touch with my soon to be ex-husband, Endicott. Actually, it was more like dinners and sleep overs at Endicott’s house. Yet, somehow they lost touch with me.

I just don’t understand how they could pick him over me. It’s not like I bad-mouthed him to any of our friends. (Yes, I know that’s hard to believe given how I post angry stories of our divorce on the internet. I pursued this outlet several months into our separation because I felt no one in my life understood — or wanted to hear about — my feelings or my situation.) When anyone asked, “What happened?” I replied, “He’s a good person, but I can’t be with him. Don’t let our breakup change anything between you.”

I guess I should have said, “Don’t let our breakup change anything between us.”

I suppose it’s very woulda/coulda/shoulda of me to dwell on the past; especially her decisions which I had no control over. The important thing now is to decide if I want to be friendly with Ruth again.

Definitely maybe,
Flo