Get back!
It’s been almost two months since I’ve checked into IXH. Though I think about it everyday, I do nothing to get back here. In fact, I drag my feet and come up with all sorts of projects that keep away from my site.
Three weeks ago, I played volunteer PA on an indie thriller film — that was soooooooooooo fun! All the male actors on set were cute young men, kinda flirty with some of the gals on set (not so much me), and, oh yeah, talented. The best part of the gig was meeting the former General Hospital actor (read: dreamboat) who I just loved, loved, loved from the minute I saw him walking into the city of Port Charles, joining Felicia as she returned from Texas. Sure, shortly after that his evil twin came into town, hell bent on killing someone over something (I don’t remember ‘cuz it was the mid-eighties, people!), but he was stopped and Doc took up shop at General Hospital. His character was a great psychiatrist always hard at work helping someone completely misunderstood or the really good person who made a big mistake, usually involving a dirt nap. He later fought vampires and demons — a tough sell even on a soap opera! — before his show was cancelled…Yep, ‘cuz I love General Hospital that was a FANTASTIC distraction (I was an intern there a long time ago…Don’t judge me!!)….Sigh.
That very pleasant gig was interrupted by my new temp job. As if that wasn’t enough to manage, I threw myself head first into my Christmas shopping — never mind that I don’t have much money to spend. I bet overspending is not exclusive to me this time of year!
I know this will sound kinda crazy, but I think my bout with Social Anxiety Disorder makes me feel uncomfortable writing here. My doctors have been tweaking my various medications so I could finally do all those little things that kept freaking me out: making calls, emailing resumes and (eeeekkkkkkkk!) staying calm during job interviews. It seems to be working, as I’m fitting into my new job answering phones! A lovely side-effect of all that chemisty is that I’m now able to get back to writing my little stories here without too much stress. (My chest feels a little tight, but I’ll get over it because I miss IXH and you, too!)
Even with all of my improvements in my daily social interactions, it took an email from a friend to get me back online. Here’s some of what he wrote. I’m saving the rest for a separate post ‘cuz there’s only so much my shrinking brain can process at once:
Flo - Long time, no speak. I hope you are doing well. As you may know, I check your web site regularly, but have seen no posts recently. Therefore, I thought you may not be at 100 prcent. Hopefully, I am wrong.
Here’s part of my response:
…I’m pretty okay, especially when I compare (this year) to last year. My achey bones and muscles are a lot less annoying/painful, I’m 30 lbs lighter than last year, my friend, “Ruth,” and I are in contact again…While things aren’t great, they aren’t awful either. I guess I’m almost happy. I have a giant grin on my face just thinking about that! The worst part of all of this divorce fallout might finally be over. Thank God!
So there you have it. I’m well and getting better every day…and very hopeful that I’ll keep inching forward to bigger and better things in 2007.
Best,
Flo
Add comment December 26th, 2006