There’s nothing like a weekend marathon of, “America’s Next Top Model,” (and now, “Australia’s Next Top Model,”) to renew one’s fixation with her weight.
As a Latina in my mid-30s, I’ve come to accept that I’m all hips and ass and belly so I try to downplay the belly and work the rest. So far, it been all about covering myself up when, really, I should stand up straight, suck in this, stretch out that and I’ll be good. It’s a poor replacement for working out, but right now, that’s all I’ve got going for me! As soon as I have a regular job that can pay for it, I’m getting my mushy self back in the weight room. I can’t wait!
Two days (okay, two afternoons) of vegging out on my chaise lounge as tall, slender girls (with flat stomachs!) are hard at work turning themselves into beautiful babes served as inspiration that I, too, could stand this way and that way so I ‘m not quite so frumpy, and gosh, I really need to step back into heels! My feet could look that good, too. It’s a gentle reminder of how great I looked (many, many moons ago) when I was in shape.
You wouldn’t guess it now as I’m a (super) healthy 145 pounds (and 5′ 10″ tall), but as I continue to drop the bad marriage weight it’s easier to see. The warm weather draws out my shorts and tank tops and bare shoulders and bare legss — they’re not so bad! Because this is the leanest I’ve been in years, I’m looking forward to taking my bareness into the next four months of heat and sunshine. I’m not bikini ready (oh, God, NO!) by any means, but I’m comfortable and ready to enjoy the weather without any hang-ups.
I’m also looking forward to dropping another fifteen pounds this summer. That could minimize my belly, hips and thighs and, finally, my complex about being too big. Then, I might finally buy a bikini. Possibly! Probably! Definitely maybe!
Now’s the time to get up off the chaise lounge!
I’m finally ready to work it out!
2 comments May 6th, 2007